Because i want to

cry. hate days like these. my emotions are all over the place because i dont know which situation to start with. everything seems equally just as important, yet all the bad wants to surface first. i dont like that because i have plenty of things to be happy and thankful for. and i especially dont like how just one thing can become everything. what happens when it's a dream come true but can easily be your worst nightmare? the whole "dont put your all your eggs in one basket" sucks too. they are right. but whats any type of "ship" without trust? mother-daughter relationship. friendship. a relationship with a significant other. nothing. luckily all of the eggs havent fallen out yet. and good thing chickens lay multiple eggs in spread out time frames. most of the time... when im mad... i just want to throw that damn basket. sometimes i do. but in the end i see that lonely basket in the middle of nowhere and pick it up bc it was mine to begin with. then i wait for new eggs to replace the ones that were previously broken.. that damn basket carries everything that can make or break my heart. i chose to keep all my eggs in one basket. because i put my whole heart in everything i trust. if someone/thing breaks them then so be it. it will always be replaced.