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tagged

my friend just-see decided to tag me under "25 random things about you"
and just like jena... i am posting mine here


1. i have a need for fresh air. whenever i know i am going to hit the freeway i roll my windows down (and to save gas) before i enter it. and right before i exit i turn off the air con and roll those babies back down

2. which leads me to numbero dos! i hold my breath around trashcans and anything that is smelly. i feel like all the dirty germs that created that odor is going to creep up into my nose and contaminate my body even more lol

3. ooh which also reminds me. i do but dont like going poopoo. i try to make sure that it'll come out asap so i can flush and get out of the bathroom asap. the toilet area is a combo of 1 and 2. no fresh air and smelly. but i do get happy when i know i have to go bc i know that if it were my last day... is wasnt due to having waste in my body. lol

4. i may not like the toilet area but i like going to the master bathrm to get peace of mind. maybe it is because there are so many mirrors... i do a lot of reflection. think about my problems, look at myself... then have that constant argument to like what i see in the mirror (spiritually & physically)

5. ever since i was little i always took my showers in the master bathrm. ...even though in my new house there is a bathrm next door to me lol. oh and ive always took showers in actual showers? lol as in.. none of that bathtub/shower place. and if i have... prob staying over somewhere else and i get weirded out.

6. i told myself that i want my house to already have a shower and a big big big lot. i think if i look at houses and i see a shower tub in the master bathrm.. it'll be an auto "no" haha

7. i have a lazy eye. so dont make me look up.. or else one will stay droopy =/

8. i am left-handed. basically thought i was superrrrrrrr cool in elementary but cursed it in high school bc my notes always got smudged.

9. always wanted to be "the boy my dad never had". i tried to adopt a lot of his ways. explains why i write in all caps and have the "it doesnt matter how much it costs" when it comes to food i crave for. lol

10. i have been making eggrolls since i was three years old. thats the age my mom got her kidney transplant. had to make some money and we've been catering ever since. oh and id peel the wrappers in front of the tv watching nick JR!


okay i am too lazy to finish 25. i'll be back later. have i amused just a little?

Because i want to

cry. hate days like these. my emotions are all over the place because i dont know which situation to start with. everything seems equally just as important, yet all the bad wants to surface first. i dont like that because i have plenty of things to be happy and thankful for. and i especially dont like how just one thing can become everything. what happens when it's a dream come true but can easily be your worst nightmare? the whole "dont put your all your eggs in one basket" sucks too. they are right. but whats any type of "ship" without trust? mother-daughter relationship. friendship. a relationship with a significant other. nothing. luckily all of the eggs havent fallen out yet. and good thing chickens lay multiple eggs in spread out time frames. most of the time... when im mad... i just want to throw that damn basket. sometimes i do. but in the end i see that lonely basket in the middle of nowhere and pick it up bc it was mine to begin with. then i wait for new eggs to replace the ones that were previously broken.. that damn basket carries everything that can make or break my heart. i chose to keep all my eggs in one basket. because i put my whole heart in everything i trust. if someone/thing breaks them then so be it. it will always be replaced.

delete

delete delete delete


today bb told me to live in the present and not in the past
and for certain things ive been able to put it behind me
... i catch myself slippin sometimes
as for what has happened today and to everyone that has been able to get under my skin
... i dont need to be angry anymore. i am fine. i have won.
i just dont like you anymore

after what has happened today. when it's all finally over... i am going to delete it
just like ive already done with dates that were to be remembered, promises, ex bfs

my life may be hectic but
my present is a blessing
my family from the very start
nyl til two thousand and forever (and i could go on forever as to why)
my true friends with open arms and ears

bb always says, "all better. everything will be fine"
i just have to believe in it and always never forget that it will.
*staying positive